My Life, In Development

               I didn’t end up writing in the journal after I got home that evening, or in the few days that followed, or at all for that matter, I didn’t know what to say after what went down that night. I still don’t understand what happened, why things had to be so final, or what the truth really is, all I know is things got a whole lot worse before they got anywhere near better.                 The Yarts bus arrived at the stop in Fresno where I’d depart at 7:05pm and I waited for David to pick me up in the IHOP parking lot. I was pacing around fighting back the tears as countless cars passed by, knowing that as soon as he arrived, there would be an outpour of emotion as he held me in his arms in that inevitable first embrace after not seeing each other for a few days. He pulled up about ten or fifteen minutes later, took my pack from me ...

Saturday 7/15/17 Wake Up Time: 6:30-7:14am, Got up at 7:19am Current Location: Tuolumne Meadows Store, YARTS Bus Stop, Time: 9:37am                 I’ve made it to the shuttle stop with plenty of time to spare today; I actually thought it was going to take me a little longer to walk here. I woke up wanting to stay in bed longer once again, but knew I should get up and moving so I wouldn’t have to rush.   T he first thing I did after exiting my little tent was locate some sun rays to charge my phone with my Goal Zero panel. Since the sun was quickly rising, I found myself having to move the panel every couple of minutes, dodging the shadows cast by all of the tress. Now that I’m at the bus stop, there’s a solid, open area with full light, so hopefully it’ll give it a good charge.                 After packing up my ...

Friday 7/14/17 Wake Up Time: 7:00am, Current Time: 10:59am                  Well, I woke up today feeling less emotional, but not wanting to get out of bed.   I wanted to sleep even more than the almost 9 hours I got;   it was 7:00am when I woke up and 7:25 by the time I dragged myself out of my sleeping bag and I knew that I needed to get moving. I got everything packed up and ate a good breakfast of oats and dried fruit with milk, an apple pie Quest bar, a cup of coffee and some extra dried fruit because it was yummy! J I had everything ready to go by 9:20am and headed out towards the Wilderness Center to catch the bus to the Valley. On the mile walk over there, I almost changed my mind once again and decided to head towards the valley vis the trail for a couple of days, but that quickly changed when my back started to hurt yet again and my spirit still felt crushed. I felt like an all-aroun...

Thursday 7/13/17 Wake up time: 6:30am I made it through the first night! I tossed and turned all night, but was able to sleep for the most part, looks like I was able to get close to about 8 hours of sleep, which is pretty rare for me. I’m still feeling like I’m not cut out for this journey, but I’m going to give it a solid effort, I’m not a quitter! The cold is going to be hard for me to handle, but hopefully I’ll keep moving well enough for it to not fully set in. It’s a nice morning and the birds are chirping, the air is fresh and clean, and the forest smells amazing! I’d much rather be out in the woods then in Fresno! At the same time, this whole roughing it business is going to be a challenge! I’m hoping this journey finds me some peace, self-growth, purpose, motivation, inspiration, and knowledge. I was still the only person to stay out here at the backpacker’s camp, so I hope that’s not a bad sign. I’m moving along slower than I’d like to be getting out on the tra...